Mayo Clinic resources and information for the best time to get
pregnant after miscarriage
ACOG early loss FAQ
ACOG multiple miscarriage FAQ
Can I ask you your opinion on something? She asks with
a cautious tone to her voice. How long did you wait before
deciding to try again? What did your doctor recommend?
She asks because we're friends and because I've been in a
similar place, having had multiple miscarriages. She asks because
it's one of those things that you can only go over in your head on
your own so many times before feeling crazy. Yet it's not something
you can ask just anyone or post as a Facebook status and see what
people think. No it's one of those things you keep close to you,
unless of course you have a sister in heartache.
I look at her with understanding eyes and ask her: Do you
want to know what I did or what the doctor recommended?
Both, she answers.
I exhale a deep kind of sad sigh. You have to understand
that I am bull-headed and stubborn, and 10 years older than
you, I remind her. I was pregnant within 12 weeks of both my
miscarriages, BUT I don't know if I recommend that and my OB does
not agree with it at all. In fact, my doctor wanted me to wait six
months, which is what WHO
recommends, ACOG wants you to
wait until a normal cycle after a miscarriage (and at least 18
months between live births) to give your body time to heal and
12 weeks? Really? She's kind of staring at me in
Yep, I was pregnant within three months of both my miscarriages.
I don't really recommend it. I have been pregnant or breastfeeding
since August 2009. It's really hard on a body, especially an aging
body. But pregnancy after loss isn't just about your body and what
it can or can't do. It's a mental game, a sometimes sick and
twisted mental game. Nothing I had ever been through before had
made me doubt myself, my body, more than losing a baby, especially
one in the second trimester. I felt like a failure of a mother, of
a women. Convinced that I had somehow failed to protect the child I
was blessed with.
I also have a scientist mind though, spending years in the
healthcare field before becoming a mom. I couldn't turn off the
analytical side that told me it was mathematical. A bad combination
of genes, a faulty line of DNA, nothing I could have prevented or
changed, nothing that waiting would prevent or change.
I needed to heal my heart more than prove anything to my mind
and body. I saw myself babying my youngest as I longed, ached to
hold my lost baby in my arms. I knew in my heart that the only way
I was going to be able to start to heal and to move on was to try
again. The second time it happened I was more shell-shocked. I was
pretty sure I had figured out the why of my first
miscarriage and was blissfully moving on to complete our family.
When I lost that second baby I was stunned and numb to my core. I
was pretty sure I was done, I could not possibly do this one more
I did, and I am glad I did. I cannot imagine our family without
these two rainbow babies in it. They bring us joy and healing every
day with their smiles and giggles, with chubby armed hugs and
sloppy opened mouth kisses. However, I tell my friend, it's a very
personal decision. It was hard. Hard on my mind,
hard on my body. I am still recovering from it. However I could not
have ended my reproductive life on a loss, and I am not getting
younger. I am grateful I had the opportunity to end on a happy note
and will do everything responsible to make sure we don't end up
pregnant, testing fate, again.
I see. She says looking at me but not really at me,
lost in the cloud of thoughts that I know so well. The one where
you search for someone, anyone to just tell you what to do because
it would be so much easier. There's nothing easy about moving on
from a loss. You just put one foot in front of the other and keep
moving forward until one day you realize you've done it, you put
that foot forward without thinking about it and that's when you
start to heal.
Melissa is mom to 4 kids and 2 angels. She chronicles the sticky bits of motherhood at Peanut Butter in my Hair.
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